Woke up thinking...

I'm so ridiculously excited about this baby and about being a mommy. But, this morning, I've got so much else on my mind. I have pretend grad school interviews playing incessantly in my mind. The last one ended with me pretend-apologizing to the person interviewing me because I had spent so much time thinking about how my interviews would go and was thrown off by how different they actually did. (Does that sentence even make sense??? I'm just going to hope it does. ) This baby and some other little issues I've come across working in the lab have made me think very hard about my future. But, I have decided to keep my head down and keep working towards what I've worked so hard on for these past few years. I have so much work to do over the next few months. I have to work so hard to make a really great score on the GRE, to publish something in the lab, and to prepare for a baby. I'm so thankful that once the baby comes, I'll have all of my applications in and will be able to spend some quality stress-free time with the baby. But, I'm going to have to learn to juggle a good bit in the next few months. More than I've ever juggled...

As I read and watch videos and prepare for a natural childbirth, I hear so many women say that once they experience giving birth that they believe that they can do ANYTHING. I think that this entire process over the next few months will leave me saying the same thing.

So, if you're reading this, please send me some positive thoughts. I've been discouraged ever since a research competition that I spent a while preparing for had a date change that I didn't know about that prevented me from participating. Bring on the positive energy. These next few months will be really tough... Who am I kidding? Life is tough anyway and probably about to get a lot tougher with another little life counting on us. I'm ridiculously blessed/lucky.